What do 50,000 words look like?

I am a nano winner and I couldn't be more proud of myself. Somewhere, around 40 words shy of reaching my goal, I realized that I have an issue with finishing things. I have no problem setting lofty goals. I race hard and quickly at the sound of a starting gun...but somewhere, in view of a finish line. I stop. Just stop. I have done this my entire life and just never recognized it for what it was. I still don't know WHY I do this. I have a big pile of WIP (work in progress) projects, some dating back to when I was a teenager.
I sat at 49,560 words for over a week.
But I didn't stay there. I looked at my computer screen for over an hour and wrote the final 40 words. I completed. On time. I finished something that few people can ever say they have done. I wrote an entire 50,000 word novel in a month's time. It is not good writing by any means. But it is mine. And it looks so pretty all typed up, and it feels so heavy in my hands.